The kidney

So I think you can all tell how badly this one is going to be!? “THE BASTARD” the new name for my cancer this is well and truly trying to F my life up again. I went to sent Ann’s for a lovely rest and manger my pain something I thought simple. Oh no no! …

Been too long

So here I am, still here just about! And fuck me I’ve been through some utter dog shit! Where to begin so at the beginning of the year my cervical cancer returns and leaves me in having to start all my treatments once again but for a longer time. 6 rounds of cell death! After …

Hey just a catch up

Hey guys I really have nothing interesting to say just telling you all I’m still alive. I seriously need to start making better health choices. My food consumption is a joke. No eating all day and just a can of coke then a takeaway at night. I’m absolutely disgusted and very disappointed in myself because …

Treatment denied

So as this covid is literally destroying everything. It’s also killing all the sick and old with people not actually catching COVID. We’ve been left to die slowly. We’ve had our chance to fight taken away We had our human rights taken away And nothing isn’t getting done about it! Why? Do you think it’s …

Coping Mechinisms

So I'm sitting here with my nose strip on waiting for it to dry before I get rid of all those nasty blocked up pores as only it was that easy to remove all the other unwanted things from your body and soul!!! And just my luck i have a cat hair stuck to the …

Cancer, Chemo and the Covid.

Devastating that we’ve all been effected and hit with this awful disease covid 19. Health workers are putting there life at risk everyday trying to battle this disease and unfortunately a lot of people have been taken before their time. We all stand outside or at our doors or windows to clap for the nhs …

Round 5

24/3/20 Today is a scary day. Even in the chemo wards everyone is coughing even I am. But I have no temp or fever or struggling to breath. But we got to carry on our fight even tho COVID 19 is everywhere. I’ve been told I might not get my next one as the virus …

Rest is the best

Rest is the best therapy 🌷 take time for self healing and recharge your inner self. 🦋Sometimes I feel guilty for just lying in bed for the day but then bed rest is part of recovery and we need to recover so we can fight the battle that have been forced or given to us. …

Round 4

This one was a lot easier this time and not as long as I had an allergic reaction to the carboplatin it’s been removed off the cocktail list. But this shouldn’t effect my treatment! So it’s great not to feel so bad. Just having avastin and taxol. Which I’m happy with better than fighting allergic …

Having to do my will

Something that I thought I wouldn’t have to do yet only been 31 but as I’ve been diagnosed with a incurable illness, I needed to sort my will out. As daunting task as it is, it’s so important to do it. Even if you don’t have a Illness. As I’ve seen in the past families …